There are billions of resources for mental help available. The only person standing in your way is you.
Boca Recovery Center created a an addiction resource guide at:
Youtube videos that explain Polyvagal theory based techniques for nervous
system grounding:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVavLNPNlYs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMNb3DZb0_Q
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L1HCG3BGK8I
Lifetime reads:
Waking the Tiger– Peter Levine
The Body Keeps the Score- Bessel van der Kolk
Facing Codependency and Facing Love Addiction– Pia Mellody
Facing Love Addiction– Pia
Guided meditations:
The Honest Guys (Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCv_lAmBCmMN2bL5GC6j0MpA)
Safe/Calm Place guided meditation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=miU4pBZ0hXQ
Deep Thinking guided meditation: F# That: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=92i5m3tV5XY (my favorite)